Finding My Way to My Own Heart

I was really lost for a while. After my miscarriage, I struggled figuring out what the Lord wanted out of me.

I cried so many days and nights feeling like I was wandering through a mental wilderness maze that wouldn’t seem to end. I would come to learn that God puts many people into a wildnerness season to test and prepare them for their bigger purpose here on Earth.

When you are isolated from the things you used to depend on, it requires you to make one of two decisions - try to escape reality or lean into God. I chose the latter and dove into his word to I a depth I’ve never known before. The more I sought the Lord, the more his faithfulness appeared. Our relationship deepened and I found inner peace I’ve never known before.

To get to that kind of alignment and peace, I had to fully surrender all outcomes to him. I had to come to understand I’m not the one in charge, He is. The peace that emerged was a result of embodiment of the Fruit of the Spirit. I learned how to restrain strength and power, how to anger slowly, how to become less bothered and how to integrate tact without losing boundaries.

It took a lot of trial, error and coming back to prayer, fasting and meditation to get where I’m at now. Each day that passes I walk more and more in my true identity in Christ. Alignment, spiritually healthy and my internal state no longer spends days in anxiety. It has been the biggest breakthrough of my life and I’m so so grateful to be where the Lord led me.

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